Getting a Life

Over these past few years, I have spent a significant amount of my time and energy "doing what I needed to do to survive". It seemed like there was an unending level of responsibility and hard decisions coming to and at me daily. I developed a demeanor and mode that matched the times.

I have to admit I took offense to the occasional times when my children found me to be to focused, not fun and a bit stern. As we talked through those times (sometimes with escalating voices), they would fling a bit of uncanny wisdom at me "Mom, why don't you just get a life?" I was always taken back and perplexed by that question. What could they mean by that? After all I gave them life, how could they think I had no life?

This past week I experienced a bittersweet victory in understanding. I was talking to my mom on the phone. She said Matt called and wanted to know what was going on with me. I wasn't responding to his calls in a timely way. She went on to say that she called Kayla to find out the scoop and Kayla said to tell Matt not to feel singled out, I wasn't responding to her requests in a timely fashion either. Kayla then included Cody in the poll and he said he never knows where I am or what I'm doing anymore.

I finally understand what they were encouraging me to do, and I followed their advice--I got a life. There was more wisdom than their chronological years in their advice to me. I had become lifeless in many senses of the terminology. Now, I am more energetic, light hearted, adventurous and yes on the go. I see and am experiencing joy in the simple things in life. Thank you my children for your wisdom and well wishes.